I have been actively avoiding doing anything stressful or beneficial for my career for a few months now. I know it is time to pick up the pace but I am exhausted. I just want to rest. My personal deadline is when they rule on my mom's death. That is hopefully coming this week. Hopefully tomorrow or Friday at the latest.
Watching my friends gain accolades and honors should be propelling me forward, but I just want to rest.
It's time to start stepping up and sending out applications/making contacts.
Work has been stressful and right now I cannot imagine starting someplace new. Uprooting my family sounds impossible and expensive.
I am amazing, talented and a hard worker. I am also depressed and I want to sleep all the time.